Lord of Shadows – Review

3.5 stars.

I’ve read this book a while ago but wasn’t able to write a review sooner. I gave Lady Midnight five stars I believe last year but with Lord of Shadows, I feel like it barely reaches four stars.
I’m not sure what happened with this book. It’s not particularly the book’s fault or the author but I expected better and more considering how good Lady Midnight was. lord-of-shadows-cover-nov-16

One thing that I have to point out is how much Cassandra has improved since she wrote TMI. She’s one of the authors I dislike the most but I get really attached to her books. TMI has one of my favourite male characters of all time (Simon Lewis). And even though I loved Lady Midnight, I still believe that TID beats everything else she wrote. Unlike other authors she seems to improve with each book, so that’s a positive note.

However, I just wasn’t feeling it. Emma and Julian felt more intense during Lady Midnight and the book ended with such a great Mark and Emma scene but then when it picks up somewhere else and on Lord of Shadows it kinda loses the first impact it had.

In terms of characters, I adore Ty and Kit. Livvy and Kit just made no sense to me whatsoever, but Ty and Kit just have this chemistry, I love their scenes.
I’m also a huge fan of Mark and Cristina. I did like the progress and what’s going on with them plus Kieran. I was feeling a little bit of Herongraystairs vibe with them.
Emma, I like her but I think I liked her and she’s badass and strong so that’s refreshing, we all need female heroes.
About Julian, I like how ruthless he is and he’s such a complex character or well, not really because we are able to know him and know that for his family there’s nothing he wouldn’t do and he has no problem sacrificing things for them. He loves so deeply and strongly it’s both heartwarming and scary. Seeing his growth has been really interesting.

Overall it’s a good book, it left everything out in the open with the end. I was hoping the next book actually picks up where it left instead of moving forward. I want to know what leads to what.

As for having TMI characters showing up, I can’t explain exactly but they feel so out of character? The whole Clary death situation feels weird and why would you give away like that she’s going to die? Even if it’s a feeling, first it would be either to kill a main character from a series in another one that has nothing to do with her. Plus if she does die, it won’t be surprising because we already know she feels that way and she knows.

Alec and Magnus felt so out of character as well, maybe other people didn’t felt the same way so it might be only me but yeah. It might have something to do with the TV show because I now have this two versions of the TMI characters in my head so seeing them in some other series it’s like 3 different sides of them.

To sum up, I enjoyed the book. I’m really looking forward to read the next one. Even though it might take forever. I just can’t give it more stars, it feels like something was missing.

The Upside of Unrequited – Review

3 stars, not spoiler free.

I havCover-Reveal-The-Upside-Of-Unrequited-Largee to start by addressing my biggest issue, which isn’t about the book but about the negative reviews it receives. Everybody loved Simon’s book. No surprise there, plus a lot of females really enjoy stories with m/m relations but when it comes to f/f suddenly everything surrounding it is problematic. But that’s not even the point I’m trying to make. The issue is that when it comes to having a fat girl as the main character everyone seems to have a problem with it. It happened with Holding Up the Universe and it happens here too. Having a fat main character actually addressing bullying and sharing their thoughts about being fat does not make a book problematic.

It’s simply the reality of a lot of fat girls and how they feel about themselves. Now, this book is short and it doesn’t really focus on the fact that Molly is fat unlike what happens with Libby so we don’t see a lot of development from that part. But self-love doesn’t happen in two seconds. I also didn’t felt like Molly needed a boy to validate her, she simply wanted to experience kissing one and actually having a boyfriend. Which I guess, a normal thing? To experience those sort of things. I also highly doubt that Molly suddenly started loving herself and accepted her body once she starts dating Reid. Yes, she does think she’s beautiful but I don’t think it’s related to Reid. Dating Reid makes her happy and guess what, having someone love you can help you realise what you couldn’t before. Because what once felt impossible it’s happening now. I don’t know where this obsession with turning love into a bad thing comes from.

In fact, Molly seems to care more about the fact that her grandmother thinks she’s beautiful than she did with Reid.
Anyway, let’s start with quotes that I totally relate to and no, I don’t find it problematic. I find it realistic.

“I guess it’s just this feeling that my body is secretly all wrong. Which means any guy who assumes I’m normal is going to flip his shit if we get to the point of nakedness (…) It makes me never want to be naked. And it’s not like I could be a Never Nude. I don’t even like jean shorts.”

Girl, same. And feeling this way doesn’t mean I need a boy to validate me. Because I know that getting a boyfriend doesn’t mean I’m suddenly going to love myself. It doesn’t work like that. I don’t need men to validate me.

Here’s another one,

“We’d kiss. Okay. We’d have sex. I don’t know. Even if he likes me, I’m not sure he’d like me naked. I hate that I’m even thinking that. I hate hating my body. Actually, I don’t even hate my body. I just worry everyone else might.”

And here we have it, Molly doesn’t even hate her body but she worries everyone else does. Because why? People really enjoy bullying others for the way they look and maybe, just maybe if we treated everyone the same way, this wouldn’t be an issue. If people weren’t assholes we wouldn’t have others growing up feeling like outsiders and people not worth loving or not being acceptable to have sex because of what their body looks like.

Another one showing once again, that also relates to movies, tv shows etc where everywhere you rarely get positive fat representation, “Under my shirt, there’s no flat stomach, and there are no cute little boobs, and there’s no hazy lighting. It’s just a lot of me. Way too much of me.”

Let’s stop pretending Molly is the only one who feels the way and the story are in her point of view so of course, you are going to see everything the way she does. And everything is going to be about her and how she sees everyone else. Because we are in her head so we might not like everything we see.

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Our Chemical Hearts – Review

3 stars.

This was an interesting reading but it wasn’t mind-blowing. Mostly because I’ve seen and read stories like this so many times by now. And the problem is that while reading this book it was like also reading The Fault In Our Stars and many other YA contemporary books. It was more of them same, not even th9780399546563e names felt like a proper escape. Hazel Grace – Grace Town. I get that writing about teenage love and tragedy can end up being really similar but it’s also getting boring.

The thing that really did make me like this book a bit more, was the fact that usually, you read books about Grace and Dom’s story. That’s what we are used to. But on Our Chemical Hearts, you read from the point of view of an outsider, an unlucky bastard who happened to love the right girl but at the wrong time. Or maybe the wrong girl too. He even realises that in the book. That was refreshing. I also enjoyed overall the message it gives about break ups and love.

I was heart broken for Grace. It was sort of creepy how much she was living for Dom or kinda pretending to be Dom. But I understand everything. She had barely lost him and then there she was expected to fall in love again. It happened too fast.

It’s an easy book to read like most contemporary YA is. More of the same, it is original for the fact that usually, characters like Henry are not the main ones. You don’t get to see their point of view. But besides that, it didn’t really feel unique nor original. That’s why I’m only giving it 3 stars.

With All The Bright Places, for example, it’s also not really something we haven’t read before but it made me connect with the characters and it really really messed me up, which it didn’t happen this time with this one.

A Court of Wings and Ruin – Review

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My initial thought was to give this book 5 stars because I just loved it so much. However, as I keep thinking about it more deeply and going through every aspect, there are details that make me want to give it a lower rating. Consider this 4.5 stars. I’ll explain why as go on.
A Court of Wings and Ruin is supposed to be the last book of this trilogy, or at least, that’s what we all thought. As for Feyre’s point of view, this was it. And considering things are seen in her point of view, it’s great. We get to know a lot of things, everything comes to place. But when it comes to the rest of the characters it feels empty. Like I’m missing a huge part of the story and some questions still needing an answer.

Assuming everyone reading this knows what happens in A Court of Mist and Fury, the ending was quite amazing. It ends with Feyre going back to the Spring Court and right from there we see things are going to be a little different, she’s thirsty for blood, so to speak. She’s going to play Tamlin and everyone, feeding them lies and pretending she’s not Rhysand’s mate and she was a victim. I was looking forward to seeing that play out.
However, I admit I found it boring and I was dying to have Feyre back in the Night Court. I can’t stand Tamlin, which just got worse at the meeting with all the High Lords (it happens, later on, a meeting set by Rhysand). But, when she does get back in the Night Court, this time taking Lucien with her, it felt too rushed. It happened too fast. She poisoned the Spring Court from the inside making sure it would fall and it was interesting to see her doing that but it didn’t quite match the ending we got in ACOMAF. I was expecting something bigger and less boring for the beginning.

Processed with VSCO with g3 presetAll that ends fast and then we are back in the Night Court and I got to see some of my favourite characters again. I think everything from that moment on played out perfectly. We got more from each character, you learned details and stories that make sense and help you connect the dots between the books and why a certain thing happened the way it did etc or why this character acts this way or that. Every moment with Feyre and Rhysand was amazing, they have a beautiful and refreshing relation. And my favourite part is how Rhysand simply allows her to be herself, make her own decisions and she has full control of her decisions, life etc. You didn’t see that happen with Tamlin and sadly you don’t see that happening in a lot of other stories which are portrayed as “goals” so kudos to Sarah.
Getting to know more of the rest of the Courts and their High Lords was something that should have happened earlier in the series I guess. I’m glad it happened now but it’s book 3 and only now I discovered or bothered to remember the names of the High Lords of Dawn and Winter for example. And getting to know more in order to know how to describe them and create something out of it.
As for the characters and relations besides Rhysand and Feyre, this is when it reaches the point where the series needed some closure which it didn’t get. In other points as well but I’m going to focus more on the characters. Because after all, those are the things that we tend to care about more while reading a book and the connection we create with it.
Cassian and Nesta are my favourite characters from the series. I absolutely love Rhysand and Feyre and I understand that it was her point of view and the whole story gets told from her eyes so obviously, whatever happens when she’s not present is harder to get ahold of. The fact that Cassian and Nesta are or could be possibly a couple is just a bonus for me, that’s not the reason they are my favourites, not as couple but as individual characters but not getting a closure from them as a couple, again it made the story feel unfinished, made me feel empty and unsatisfied. Which is the opposite of what a final book in a series is supposed to make you feel?

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I feel like, besides the main character and her mate, Amren was the only one I felt like a full cycle was completed. She got a role to play and her story reached a conclusion. That didn’t happen with the others. We understood more of the complicated history between Mor, Cassian and Azriel. But what happens to Mor? She told Feyre but is she going to come out to the rest of her friends? Is she ever going to tell Azriel and allow him to heal and move on? Clearly, Elain is not feeling the same for Lucien, she does not care that she’s his mate but she creates some sort of connection with Azriel. Is she going to be the one to help him let go of Mor romantically speaking? Are they going to be besties or lovers? Does Elain get full control of her powers? What is going on inside Nesta’s head now?
I’m not going to lie, what kept me reading a lot of the times when I was going through the book was not only wanting to finish and know what happens of course but the desperate need for Cassian and Nesta scenes. Each time I saw their names I both died and was reborn in each scene. There’s something special between them, a love growing but not the love you see with Feyre and Rhysand or even with some other character. It’s just something there, from the moment they first met. Is Nesta the first woman Cassian has truly loved or started to? What did they both feel when the kiss happened? Are they going to be mates? So many questions, so much that still needs to happen in this characters lives that we just did not get to see. And yes, because it’s Feyre’s point of view. This whole thing had to happen in order for Feyre to even see Nesta and Cassian dealing with the king.

I’m guessing all these new books coming up are going to answer our doubts and be in other characters POV but for the last book, supposedly ending a trilogy it should have had more answers. I still think that out of the three, this one is my favourite. It should

Processed with VSCO with g3 presethave been a bigger book, I could read this story forever.

As for characters that I liked in ACOTAR and I don’t like now that much. Tamlin and
Lucien. Actually, I do like Lucien, I’m glad he had a great role to play now. Speaking of closure earlier and unanswered questions, I still don’t see the point of making him Elain’s mate. Nothing seems like it will come out of that and it felt like this stone badly placed in the middle of the story for a purpose that it didn’t get to be unfolded. That’s what I felt at least. Tamlin though, he was just absolutely disgusting during that meeting. He treats Feyre poorly, always. Acting as if he had any control over before and I get the vibe from him that all he wants or ever wanted from her is sex. He never truly loved her how he’s supposed to. But maybe it was her that blinded him to the point of making him be that way, not in her fault but the love he felt for her. It was poison. But it was poison because he forced it, not because he truly wanted to be in love with her or someone in the first place.
Even though he did correct himself, in the end, it wasn’t enough to make me like him but I did wish to see more, does he find that happiness after all? Does he correct his flaws and finds his mate perhaps and learns to be the person he should have been all along with Feyre? We will see.

I’m excited to see what’s coming in the future. What characters we will get to know better. Until then, until it becomes canon we will all live through our imagination, the what ifs and what not’s. Trying to guess what is going to happen.